Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Heartbroken and Surprisingly Happy...

Yesterday I had my heart broken again. I can't recall how many times this has now happened in my life but I think it is over 20. On my long drive up to the Bay Area for work today I thought about my 20s and early 30s and the love I have experienced and the heartbreak often associated with it. Normally I would think about how much the ruthless men are missing out on my hotness and nurturing ways and how miserable they will be without me. But today...

... I don't feel sad or bitter over the loss of any of them. Even the one that just happened yesterday. I thought back to my earliest love that still felt the strongest of them all and I just thought about how grateful I am that I felt that way for him. Even though it didn't last.

Today I kept thinking about how lucky I have been to know my most recent heart-breaker and to love him the way that I did. I no longer feel sad like I have in the past. I am just happy to log away the memories we made into the journals of my life and will always have good feelings when I reflect on those times.

If I fall in love another 100 times and get my heartbroken at least half of that I will keep doing it over and over. In the land of heartbreak I have been able to find a peace that I didn't think could exist. I feel good.

3 comments:

  1. Erin, you inspire me. Thank you for writing this. It is a great attitude to have. I am going to try and have this approach from now on. :) Thank you for your example.

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  2. Hey Erin, you do not know me but I just have stumbled upon your blog by others and I love to just randomly read what you right. I too have recently gone through a breakup and I wish that I could be as strong as you. This post came to me at a very good time! Keep on keepin on! :)

    -Amanda Fowlkes
    (Your blogging friend)

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  3. Amanda I just saw your comment even though I know you wrote it awhile ago! Thanks for the kind words:) Isn't life fun with all the ups and downs?

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